Following Jesus

Sam Rae from Aberdeen shares with us the impact that quality discipleship while living in authentic community has had on his life. He is currently working as the Youth & Children’s Intern at Emmaus Rd in Guildford.

At one point or another we all have to make choices that we don’t feel ready to make. Whether it’s what sandwich you want for lunch or what to do when you leave school – making choices can be stressful.

When I was deciding what to do upon finishing school, it felt like I was being pulled in a hundred different directions – go to university, study this, study that, apply for an apprenticeship. It felt like whatever decision I ended up making would have a major impact on the rest of my life.

Throughout the whole process I was desperate to follow God’s plan, yet it felt like He had left me high and dry in my time of need. I was stressed out and everyone around me knew it. I was told again and again “God will reveal His plan to you piece by piece” but it felt like God wasn’t giving anything away.
University deadlines were just around the corner and to say I was feeling stressed was an understatement. It was in the peak of my stress that I came across this quote,
It doesn’t matter which side of the fence you get off on sometimes. What matters most is getting off. You cannot make progress without making decisions.” —Jim Rohn

This quote freed me to make a decision and to stop worrying about which specific direction God wanted me to take. God goes with us wherever we go. Whichever choice I made, God was going to come with me.

I chose to take a gap year. As cliché as it may sound, I wanted to devote my year to finding God and discovering my identity in Christ. Nowadays there are so many different gap year programmes that help people do exactly that but I chose to do 24-7 Prayer’s The Vision Course.

It claimed to be “5 months of radical discipleship and personal growth – laying foundations of biblical knowledge, cross-cultural mission, character development and, of course, prayer.” And that’s exactly what it did.

I grew more in that 5 months on the course than I ever had before. I was learning about authentic community first-hand; being loved and cared for by people desperate to see me grow. I was being stretched more than I thought possible. I was giving my time and talents to God. And learning to truly lean on Him gave me a confidence that people had never seen in me before. The saying ‘God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called’ is true and my life is a testimony to that.

Growing in our knowledge and understanding of God’s Word allowed us as students to follow Him with a greater passion whilst also laying a solid foundation of basic theology.

I would urge anyone reading this that if you want to grow more than you have ever before and be championed by some amazing leaders then check out THE VISION COURSE.

Pray for the Harvest

Anna Wakening of St Paul’s & St George’s in Edinburgh shares about their recent 24-7 prayer week held for the purpose of calling the church to pray in the lead up to their Vision Sunday.

“In the week leading up to our ‘Vision Sunday’ we as a staff team decided to run a week of prayer to gather the church together to pray into our vision.

Having previously been an employee of 24-7 Prayer I felt that this would be a great opportunity for me to use some of the experience of those years. So I happily volunteered to take on the set up of the prayer room. This was on Tuesday, the prayer week was to start on Monday. There was some panic and trepidation when Sunday afternoon came and the room was still bare. But with the help of some faithful volunteers, the prayer room was finished within a few hours! Amazingly, this did not take a lot of resources – I borrowed bean bags from Youth, colourful squares of paper from Children’s Ministry. And with a creative friend alongside me, we were able to create a beautiful atmosphere like you can see in the picture above.

The theme of the prayer room was around Luke 10:2 – “The harvest is plentiful, but the labourers are few. Therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out labourers into His harvest.”
Having an agricultural background I focused on the the four simple stages of harvest: Ploughing, planting, growing, harvesting. I gave a brief description of each but kept it simple to allow people to interpret for themselves as they spent time praying for the church.

It was a great privilege to be able to use the gifts that God has given me to help the church to pray and journey forward together.

As we looked at our Church vision, we wanted to gather as a church to pray into the specific areas of ‘Pray’, ‘Serve’ and ‘Give’ as these three words are shaping and changing the culture of our church body.

The week of prayer culminated with our ‘Vision Sunday’ where Dave our Rector shared from his time in the prayer room. He talked about the four stages of harvesting and how we as a church are presently in the stage of ploughing. Taking the old, used soil and turning it over to help the soil to be nutrient-rich and ready to supply all that the seeds need to grow.

We continue as a church to seek to grow as we are called to be whole-life disciples, sharing the whole of the gospel, with the whole of society, through churches of grace.

I just want to encourage you that if the desire to run a prayer week is strong within you but you are daunted by the task of setting up a prayer room, have no fear. The Lord God has given you everything you need to be everything He wants you to be.
There are lots of resources available on the 24-7 Prayer website and they have a great sign-up system that made the whole process really easy, therefore giving me the time to focus my energies on the content of the prayer room itself.”

Luminous Dark and Learning to Pray Again

We are incredibly blessed in 24-7 Prayer with a number of gifted communicators and writers whose stories have been impacting hearts around the globe. But it is not just the gift of communication that has made their stories powerful and influential – but the fact that their stories are real, they come from the heart, from personal places of struggle, brokenness, pain, questions, hope and healing.

I was given the weighty privilege of reading and reviewing the manuscript of one such gifted communicator and his story. Alain Emerson of 24-7 Prayer Ireland has courageously put onto paper his journey through grief after the death of his young and beloved wife and his wrestle with God in the darkness of pain, fear, anger, unanswered questions and all that grief brings with it.

I expected it to be an emotional read. After all, I have also known grief as companion at points along my life’s journey. But I did not expect what has happened through the beautifully raw and honest words that make up Alain’s story.

As I type this, it is nearly 6 years to the day that my own dear mum passed away, 7 years since we first received the news of a rare and incurable cancer eating away at her within and speeding up the dementia that was already confusing her mind.

I remember those surreal days and nights spent at the hospice, sitting with my dying mother and finding myself praying for God in His mercy to take her home. Never would I have expected to one day pray for death rather than life as death seemed the more merciful.
And I will never forget the night my childhood bestie whose sister had just taken her own life came and sat with me. We sat together in our grief for ourselves and for one another, sometimes in quiet, sometimes talking about films, sometimes voicing to one another our questions that had no answers. Yet we were aware of another Presence sitting quietly with us as well. In His book Alain says, “In our pain and suffering God is not answering our questions, for we come to learn that they are beyond the objective explanations our rationalised minds crave. God reminds us, I AM, in the midst of the flames…God doesn’t give us answers. In the silence, He gives us Himself, bigger than our pain, beyond our explanations, closer than our breath.”

And that is something that has been consistent throughout my seasons of grief and brokenness, His presence.

Yet what I was surprised to learn about my own heart through Alain’s book was some areas of unresolved grief that explained why I have been wrestling with God about praying for certain things.

Have you ever struggled to pray for something or even stopped praying altogether, because the pain of disappointed hope, the tension of the waiting became too much?

Then you can relate I’m sure.

There were a number of unanswered prayers, death of dreams, deep disappointments in those couple of years during and after my mum’s passing. And it has dented my hope. Not so much hope in general, but hope in those specific areas of disappointment.

I don’t like feeling weak. So I have just trudged doggedly on, not allowing myself to push into the pain of the disappointments like I did the year after my mum passed away, resigning myself to life as it is in the present reality. When I have attempted to pray into these areas again, I have experienced what Alain describes here: “…I didn’t know how to rebuild anything…because every opportunity for believing again was overshadowed by a giant question mark.”

But God isn’t content with leaving me there because He has better for me. So in His tender love He brought me healing in the disguise of doing a friend a favour of reviewing a book.

It is painful yet life-giving, this re-awakening of hope and I am cautiously, tentatively stepping forward through some very wobbly prayers for the areas that have felt barren and empty. It is a place of “risky hope” like Alain calls it. Brennan Manning would refer to it as “Ruthless Trust” I think. I believe it will be worth the risk but I have to choose to take that risk.
It’s like Alain says in Luminous Dark: “I slowly became aware that the place of reorientation, the ‘spacious place’ I was being invited into, involved a corresponding decision from me. It was a decision to step over a threshold, to walk into the new. We choose and declare hope before we are fully in it…”

If you have experienced grief and loss in your life, whether that be the loss of a loved one, the death of a dream, the pain of an unfulfilled hope, then I truly believe you will find this book a helpful companion. A companion that seeks not to give you answers, but to journey with you as you wrestle with the pain, the questions and the darkness and to, somewhere along the way, discover a “luminosity.”

Luminous Dark by Alain Emerson will be published in a few days and is available for pre-order now so check out the publisher’s website and social media feeds for details: https://www.muddypearl.com

Breaking Barriers in the North

Jennifer Gordon from Thurso shared this story with us a year ago but it is so compelling and encouraging, we thought it needed to be shared with you all here again.

Knowing nothing about 24-7 Prayer, I came across an advert for the annual 24-7 Prayer Gathering, that year to be hosted in Edinburgh and called “Magnify.” I felt compelled to go and the fact that my husband immediately agreed to come to a two day long prayer gathering was indeed proof that God still performs miracles!

Of course, the Lord had started to work on us well before, but that 2010 gathering in Edinburgh was a catalyst. God spoke so clearly in the days before, during and after the Gathering, that I had no doubt He wanted us to gather the local churches in Caithness to pray in unity, humility and blessing on St Andrew’s Day 2010, and also to launch a county-wide 24-7 Prayer Room from Christmas Day to New Year’s Day.
Just as well He was so graciously clear, as the day before I sent out invitations to all 30 churches, I discovered that my mum had a 7cm tumour in her breast which had spread to her lymph nodes and who knew where else, and we may be facing our last Christmas with her. On top of that, I wasn’t even free on St Andrew’s Day as I had to travel to Inverness with work. And, after weeks of searching, we still had no suitable prayer room.

But God had spoken, so we kept going, certain that He would provide.

Within days, a six-year-old boy had heard from the Lord regarding a “lady with a sore booby” (my mum is well and still with us today!). Then the morning of the St. Andrew’s Day prayer gathering brought a snowstorm and my course in Inverness was cancelled! And just 1 hour before the event, my friends called to say they had secured a large office space in Thurso town centre for the prayer room – free of charge and, as they were about to re-decorate, permission to cover the walls!
Two years later I would discover that a local lady had had a dream before we even knew about our prayer room – she saw a flashing light coming from the window of this same office onto the street below, lighting up the whole area!

Over 70 folk, from at least 9 different fellowships, prayed 24/7 on the north coast in the final watch of the “Big If” Year of Prayer in Scotland.
If you’ve spent time in a 24-7 Prayer Room you may understand the joy, freedom, expectation and glorious intimacy we experienced that week, and again the following year at the start of the Kingdom Come 2012 Year of Prayer.

We continued with monthly praise & prayer gatherings in a local diner as well as one-off events.

Others are now organising regular united praise & prayer events, including our sister fellowship in Scarfskerry, the most northerly church on the mainland and site of the first “Revival Run” (prophesied two months earlier by a lady we had met at the Magnify Gathering).

This past summer of 2016 we had the first gathering of “Breaking Barriers” – the ORCAS (Orkney, Caithness & Shetland) partnership – in Kirkwall, which one friend and seasoned missionary said was “the closest she’d ever come to being in an atmosphere of the New Testament Church.” There were no barriers between those present, only genuine love for new friends and their localities. At one point I looked around the gathering and every single person was either praying for someone or being prayed for! Some felt barriers removed, including healing from long-term medical conditions, from fear and worry, and from limitations. Others came away with a new boldness to step into more of what the Lord was showing them. And one friend from India had been there before in a dream, many years ago, having never visited our continent before, let alone Orkney!

As I write this today, six of my friends have stepped into a vision the Lord gave after “Breaking Barriers” – to travel to the remote areas along the north and west of Scotland in a motorhome, praying over places, with and for people, and encouraging other believers, like a “mobile prayer room”. They didn’t have a motorhome when they first received this vision, but of course the Lord already had that one covered!

Over these last 6 years, connections and friendships across the north coast and beyond have grown in love and in number, but “the best is yet to come” as we:
Break down these barriers, tear down these walls
Rise gospel carriers and follow where He calls
Light our path and guide our way
Lord empower us each day
To share Your story, reflect Your glory –
United in Your love
For Kingdom living and whole life giving
Your purpose here to serve.
” (“Break Down these Barriers” by Guy Gordon 2016)